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Self-confidence and self-worth are different things.  I have self-confidence.  That comes into play when accomplishing tasks.  I have zero self-worth.  That comes into play when dealing with myself.

This is a new semester, a new place, and therefore I've been working on a set of goals, things I need to work on, things I'm lacking.  Then I'll just chew on them until creative approaches seep out in order to pledge an attack on the bad and to fertilize the good.  So far the list looks a bit like this:

- Continue deliberately practicing and doing uncomfortable things (see my New Year's revolutions)

- Work on self-esteem and self-worth... somehow

- Grow thankfulness, compassion, gentleness

- Hang out with people on the margins

- Take Jesus and his words more seriously.  The words he spoke about me, about us, about reality.  Understand them deeper than words.

- Experience beauty; become enchanted with life again 

(if you have beautiful and ridiculous ideas of things I should do, let me know!  I currently have things like learn how to handstand, wake up for sunrise, poke a slug)